PITY PARTY FOR ONE PLEASE REMOVE YOURSELF

A COP HAT FROM AND OLD HALLOWEEN COSTUME THAT I TRANSFORMED

FUN FRINGE PANTIES

THE BRA I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON FOR MY COSTUME

I'D HAVE TO SAY AFTER THIS PIC "I'M LOOKING PRETTY GOOD FOR A 46 YEAR OLD WOMAN"

I'm an optimistic person. So when I found myself being negative this morning I put myself in timeout. Time for a reality check.`

What the heck am I complaining about? There is nothing I should  be getting so frustrated over.
I'm tired. Big deal. My body wants a break. Okay, I will rest and quit being so hard on myself and being critical about my performance, or lack there of on difficult days. I'm doing the best I can every day and that is enough.

I switched my thoughts to being grateful. I have everything in the world I need.
A healthy body, work that I love, people that I love and that love me, a roof over my head and food to eat. The reality check certainly put me in my place  and within the hour I was back to myself.

I also spoke to my wonderful friend Tionna and she helped me gain some perspective on competing.
She said something that made so much sense. I'll try to do my best to repeat what she said.  "Getting on stage isn't just about how low your body fat is or your weight. It's time to show off the hard work, dedication and BRING a presence to the stage." (Yes, duh Matreena)

For Pete's sake! I was being to forget the fun. I'm going to Canada in 7 days to compete in the WBFF World Championships!!! How could I not be having a great time?  I'm going to meet the most AWESOME athletes and compete with the Best of the Best! I'm going to BRING IT like I did last time and just have fun with it.

Struggling a normal part of life, but I am not struggling. The only struggle I have is the one in my mind.
I don't ever want to forget about the great things about my life or what competing has to offer in terms of learning about personal growth. And the fun. I don't ever want to forget about having fun!!

My bad day was gone before it got started; all because of my conversation with my friend and gaining some REAL perspective.

If you find yourself being negative or feeling frustrated how do get things back into perspective?

BITTER

Yes, this is how I feel today. I couldn't even muster up enough energy to finish my morning cardio session, and I don't feel like eating.

I'm SOooo frustrated! I've been staying on track with my diet and busting my butt-- going back to the gym every night for the last 4 days doing extra cardio, lifting, and the scale hasn't budged. I feel like throwing in the towel and I'm not a happy camper today!

I have 2 big events over the next 2 days and a list of clients to see. I'm feeling paralyzed, overwhelmed and angry.
This is not who I normally am and this is part of the training and dieting I DO NOT like one bit!

There is no choice but to suck it up today and wait for this awful mood to pass. I will make NO EXCUSES! I have a training session with Chidi later today and I will make time to pose. I might be pouting...and cursing,  but I WILL be taking my frustration out in the gym.


UGH!!!



Thank god Stormy is a wonderful, understanding, loving soul.


Lesson learned-- stay off the scale and go by your body fat calipers.